I HATE HIGH SCHOOL! by vampchick88

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I HATE HIGH SCHOOL!
Thursday, November 30, 2006

i hate high school. i never thought i could hate anything more then i hate lana lang, but, oh yeah i do, i hate high school with all my being. all my friends are in upper grades/ classes. it's terrible. the guidence counsler won't move me up to any other honors classes! she think's i'm just going to fail out of the class and end up back in regular classes.

i feel like an idiot here. but not like stupid, i feel like i know to much for my own good. i answer questions about obscure things like DNA like it's nothing. people here think i'm a freak. i can't help that i retain information like a sponge. i wish i didn't. when ever i answer a question(which is 25 percent of the time in class because i'm surrounded by stupid people) people act like i'm brown noseing or somthing.

i watch CSI, how can i not learn about genetics. my dad is a war buff, i can't help it if i know a lot about history. i've been watching PBS and the discovery channel since i could walk. everything i see just sticks in my brain.

teachers have always told me that i'm their favorite student. i hate being a favorite student because they always count on you to know the homework, and answer questions in class.

i'm sick of being here. day in and day out all i go through is verbal abuse. people don't even notice they're doing it anymore, put downs are like fulent to them. it feels like it's mostly directed towards me whenever i'm in class.

sometimes i just stay home because i really don't see the point in learning the information if people are just going to make fun of me for knowing it later.

i can't help it.

like today at lunch i cwas called a 'shut in' and i was told by a certain person that my friend's lives are none of my buisness.

i really don' like this person, and i don't see why they are sitting at our table. this girl is so messed up that she cut the word 'failure' into her wrist this summer.

yeah, these are the future leaders i'm going to school with.

so with most of my friends graduating next year i will be completely alone my senior year. that should be just great. i'll be happy if i make it out alive.

i've been asking my parents to put me through boarding school since i was 10, mostly because of harry potter and stuff, but i have never ment it more then i do now.

mom is used to my once yearly break down about the people i hate who are mean to me, and my classes, and my friends who ignore me, and this town. but she never does anything about it. my grandma has offered to send me through private school since i was in 1st grade, and now all i want to do is exactly that. i need to get out of the school.

dad was really popular when he was going to school. therefore, i'm supposed to be a social butterfly. i'm not. they havn't even given me a cerfew because they know i never go out. it's pathetic, he expects me to be a loser. so i am.

mom on the other hand was really unpopular when she was a teenager, so marrying dad was like hitting the jackpot. however, i think she regrets it a ton. she told me they were going to seperate when i was 10, but that never happened because she got sick a month later.

it's kinda sad really, i wanted them to seperate. al they ever do is fight and talk about eachother behind their backs. and they put me in the worst position possible when i'm alone with them. if mom's talking about dad, i have to a agree with her. if dad's talking about mom i have to agree with him.

the other day i asked her if they would ever get a divorce. she said no because he get's insurence from his work and if somthing ever happened to her we wouldn't be able to pay for it.

so my parents are staying together because of insurence. never has a more romantic story been told.

i don't blame either of them. they got married really young, and i think if i wern't around they would have broken up around the time i was born. i can't remember a time when they wern't fighting really.

so you would think that school would be okay because of how my home life is...it isn't.

i need to get out of here so badly.

i'm considering just going to europe my last year so i can get out of here earlier.

but then i eould miss out on the 'senior' experience...right. i would miss dancing in a gym for my prom, and i would miss senior skip days, because there's nothing like sitting at home listening to my parnets fight.

what ever, i'm over it, and a little pissed off right now, i need to eat somthing and i need to sleep...

COMMENTS

Friday, December 01, 2006 12:46 PM

SAVEWASH

Hugs from me too. High school was a long time ago for me, but I remember how hard it was. As the others have said, though, you're well-qualified to get through and have a much better life than all those mean people: you have smarts and what do they have? Nothing. Keep telling yourself that.

Best wishes that it will work out and get a lot better.

Thursday, November 30, 2006 6:40 PM

RIKMJWSL777

FUCK HIGH SCHOOL

Thursday, November 30, 2006 2:36 PM

THEKNIGHT

Well, you sound like you are almost in the exact same position as my mei mei. So I think I will tell you what every big brother who care should tell. I know you dont want to hear that it does get better, but it does. The great thing about high school is that it ends. Take solace in that fact. Being the smart kid who knows the answers and is the teachers pet, well that is a good thing, don't worry about what they other kids say. That is rule number one about high school. Find things you like to do and do them. High school sucked for me until I started doing things that I found enjoyable. Then the other crap started to melt away. You have to become happy with yourself first, then what the others think will not matter. That is how I made it through. Though we may have never met, I believe in you. Oh and remember that all those people who seem to enjoy high school, this will really be the best years of their lives, it is all downhill for them. You on the other hand have your whole life ahead of you, and you will make it through. Good luck, stay strong, and Keep Flyin.

Thursday, November 30, 2006 2:29 PM

LITTLEALBATROSS29

Honey, about 15 years ago I was exactly where you are. I remeber how much it sucked and hurt, at home & at school.But it does get better as you get older, I am living proof of that.And being a Browncoat shows how smart & strong you already are.Someday you will be proud that you lived through all the trouble & found a better life for yourself.Really.

Thursday, November 30, 2006 2:25 PM

BLUEEYEDBRIGADIER

Welcome to your Battle of Du-Khang (cuz I don't think this is Serenity Valley territory yet and no other battle but Sturges got name-dropped canonically), VC88. It's hell, but you'll get out of there eventually.

Definitely know how you feel. High school was one long period of struggling against a lot of negative emotion and frustration as people gave me flack for being me. It got better somewhat when I reached my senior years (Ontario used to have 5 years of high school, so I got 2 years of being a senior...scary, isn't it?) but still was a lot to deal with. Plus, my parents have never been sedate when it came to their relationship with one another. Definitely think they would have gone their separate ways has me and my brother not come along (though they do seem to give a crap about our welfare, so that's nice;D).

So yeah...you got massive amounts of support here, vampirechick88. High school is a testing ground for adult life. You get through and you're already qualified to handle a lot of things life will throw at ya. Though university does prep ya for a nice chunk of the rest;)

BEB

Thursday, November 30, 2006 11:41 AM

MSG

Hey a lot of your story sounds like me. I know how this feels and the only thing I can say is, you've been sentenced to a sucky life for a crime others committed. Think of it as serving time in prison. You'll get parole at 18 and be able to go on and live the life you want. You will be amazingly successful because you already know you can survive the worst life has to offer. Sometimes you have to walk through fire to come out clean. You are not responsible for anything but yourself and I have to say you're doing a fantastic job raising yourself. I'm just sorry you had to. You hold on and I can guarantee you that it will get better and 10 years from now you will look at your life and think "I ROCK!" HUGS and know that I think you are a brave, smart, funny, sweet girl who is going to be someone truly incredible to this world.

Thursday, November 30, 2006 11:41 AM

CALLMESERENITY

Yeah, high school sucks. I remember it. I hated it, too. Every single day. The stupid people being mean. It's ridiculous to be made fun of because you're smart (when, really, they're just jealous.) And, I understand the unsavoury home life. Even though you probably feel like you're the only one suffering through, you're not.

And I promise you: IT GETS BETTER.

It really does.

Hang in there.

And, here, have a hug: *HUG*

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