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I'm a Crybaby now
Monday, January 30, 2006

The Serenity movie was what got me into the whole Firefly thing. I'd only seen one or two of the episodes previously. The first time I saw the movie, well, it was good enough to send me out to the store in the middle of the day (which is alot more like the middle of the night when you work night-shifts) and pick up the box set.

Finally made it through all the episodes and soaked up everything else I could get my hands on. Read that script, saw the River Tam sessions, even went through a couple episodes with the commentaries on. So I'm hooked. That's a given anyways... :P

Tonight was my first day off in over a week, so I wasn't really up to do anything special, and I figured I'd take a break from sketching and such. Sitting around at 2:30 in the morning by myself, nothing on the tv. Figured it would be a pretty good time to go and re-watch the movie now that I know what's really going on and such.

Sure, there's a couple things that bother a bit now, that hadn't before. Mal's new suspenders kind of bug me. And was Wash doing laundry or something? What happened to those Hawaiian shirts? Sure, there wasn't as many of those little Firefly moments I'd grown to love these past two weeks, and the lighting was a lot different, but... gorramn...

First off, I'm not the sort to generally cry at movies. I shed like a tiny little tear at the very end of the LOTR movies (you know, when Sam comes home, sits in his chair, and say "Well, I'm home...), and for some reason Braveheart got me going a bit near the end. I don't know why, but most movies don't really do that to me. I'm a pretty sensitive artsy guy, but there's likely just enough machismo in me or something.

(We're coming up on SPOILER city by the way...)

But... literally beginning at Wash's "leaf on the wind" scene to the very very last bit of credits (never noticed the Firefly theme at the very end, that didn't help matters) the waterworks were turned to full blast on yours truly.

I was getting a little weepy with Wash dying after his greatest moment. And things were starting to get tense at that "Hold. Hold till I get back" part. But... wow... I could barely see straight by the time the doors open in the hallway and Mal is silhouetted and looking at what's left of his crew. River's fight scene with the Reavers? Forget it, just a bunch of shapes but the emotion got through to me plenty.

By the time I got to the funeral scene, I was bawling. Seriously, bawling. Like a baby. Sitting alone in my room in the dark at like four in the am just weeping uncontrollably. We're talking call the weather hotline 'cause a torrential rain is on the way. I'd start to get ahold of myself, and then they'd zoom in on the hologram of Wash turning around and grinning...

Don't even get me started on Mal's speech to River at the very very end. I'm choking back the waterworks and trying to say the lines along with him between heaving sobs. The credits are rolling and I'm just sitting there like a two-year-old who just dropped his first ice cream cone in the dirt. Not a pretty sight.

I'm not even going anywhere with this. I'm not going spiel on about how someone, somewhere in world of television executives better wise-up and draw out a rock-solid contract for Whedon to do another five years of Firefly. I won't gush and gush about the characters and how good the acting is, and how well-written the show is, or even how adorable Kaylee is.

I got a little emotional the first time I saw the movie. Seeing it the second time around, after seeing the episodes and having a firm background in the story, that was an entirely new experience for me.

Bawling.
Like a baby.
If this is what obsession is like, frelling sign me up...

COMMENTS

Saturday, February 4, 2006 3:31 AM

REXJAYNE

I have to say I'm really excited that the movie brought so many new people to our little 'verse, though I can't imagine watching it without knowing the entire background first. It must have been great to go see the movie and know there was still so much out there to see, while it was an end to everything for me. After waiting so long for it, the first time I saw it was really emotional, but it was hard to cry like that in the theatre, especially with my boyfriend there, who *never* cries and already thought I was a crazy fan-girl. I'm glad to see I'm not the only one overwhelmed by it.

Thursday, February 2, 2006 8:07 AM

ASARIAN

"I can see you!" Err, I mean: I hear you, I hear you!

Oh, what it is about this movie/series that makes grown man cry? I came at it the same way you did. First I saw Serenity. And by the end of the movie I was so in love with River! And then, Oh my gawd, I realized there was still a whole series left to see! And then seeing Serenity again... wow!

Serenity/FireFly is the most potent drug out there, more addictive than nicotine, and, by far, the addiction people are less willing to give up!

You know what that drug is, of course, right? It is Love, in point of fact.

Tuesday, January 31, 2006 2:24 PM

HERA

Hell, I cried just reading your post., and I'm still at work (tricky that, crying at work).

I can empathize. I came to Firefly through the movie just like you did -- watched the series (3 times through, I think), then re-watched the movie. Then it dropped on me like a ton of bricks. I can only imagine how emotional it must be for those fans who were here from the beginning. Very hard, I'm sure.

But not only was there the agony of losing Wash and Book, it was the final sinking in that there was no more to see. No more episodes, no more movies (at least right now). Coming out of the movie that first time, all dazed and thunderstruck, it was like OH COOL! There's a WHOLE SERIES I still get to see? Naive, I know, in retrospect, since there wasn't enough, not by a long shot. But, we still have each other, and Joss and the dedicated cast and crew who love all things Firefly. Keep the faith! Support each other.

No telling what will happen. Truly.

Tuesday, January 31, 2006 9:53 AM

FOREVERSHINY

Oh, so did I!

It's really a magical thing that makes people cry so hard they can't see straight. :-D

Welcome to the obsession-land of the Browncoats. *grin*

Tuesday, January 31, 2006 4:40 AM

FOLLOWMAL

It's a beautiful, painful thing isn't it?
Not really a show or movie at all, but an experience...like the kind in real life that make a mark on you for the rest of your life. These folks are our family. And their experience made a mark on me for the rest of my life.
I'm glad to be a Browncoat, I'm glad you are too.

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