Hey gypsylife,

I am male; so feel free to disqualify me from this thread; and no hard feelings. :)

I have a few thoughts on the matter; again, feel free to wipe it all out. Also, forgive me if I sound a bit apodictic (yeah, I know, it's a big word, lol; but I haven't slept in almost 20 hours, so I lack the energy to find an easier equivalent, or to write more considerately). Ok, here it comes.

I'd say you've been exposed to something wonderful; something so rare, even, that I have found that many people do not even recognize it for what it is. At least, not at first. And when I tell you what it is, and you realize it, you will be astounded; and astounded, you will marvel.

It is Love, in point of fact. Your soul already knows this; while yet the brain may not. This, if you could call it that way, is the "spiritual gravity" that draws you into the Verse; and it is this Love that makes you ache in its absence.

Love, when it is real, and recognized as such, touches us from deep within. It opens up the soul, like an umbrella; giving access to a whole new world. When you are exposed to Love, however, you also become, quite literally, "exposed", in the sense of being vulnerable. This, I venture, to say, is where you're at now. And why so many choose to stay "shielded".

How to deal with this? That question is as personal as is the answer. Only you will truly know. I, for one, know, however, that when you recognize something, when you can give it a name, then you're already half-way through dealing with it. So the trick, for me, is to recognize the Love, along with the destabilization it may bring.

Why, "destabilization", that does not exactly sound good, now, does it? :) Well, that depends. Love triggers. And sometimes the effects are downright unsettlin'. Old pains emerge, and emotions run rampant. Now, here's the hard part: you gotta stick with it. Now, anyone who has even glanced at my blog, will know that the Verse triggers the heck out of me, all up and down, and does not exactly make me a paragon of stability. :) Yet I try and stick with it. Sometimes you gotta dampen the flow of emotion a bit; but overall, I leave the flood gates open.

My hopelessly long-winded point being, that vulnerability, when caused by the Verse, is a good thing. :) It reconnects us, through the Love, to our own humanity. So, if you feel like crying, cry; I do; and I'm male. :) There is truly nothing more cleansing for the soul, or more liberating, than letting it all out. And letting it all in. I soak it all up; and then, like the Earth-That-Was, when it all becomes too much, and I go into emotional overload, I puff up my cheeks and blow it all out again into the sky; because, after all, the one thing they can't take away from us is the sky. :)

It sounds to me that maybe the Firefly 'verse just kind of unleashed the emotional floodgates within. And now you're making up for lost time, by allowing yourself to cry at everything. I understand how that feels. I'm literally the girl that cries at everthing, we're talking commercials, movie previews, even that episode of Futurama with Fry's dog (Jurassic Bark I think it's called). I wouldn't really stress about this, I think it's perfectly normal to emotional, even if other people don't get why.

Well, it could just be that since finding a show you loved, you're more willing to become emotionally invested in television and movies. I guess that's an obivous answer, but it makes a lot of sense. LOL, it's like becoming an emotional TV junkie. You keep becoming invested in what you watch, hoping it will give you the same emotional high as Firefly...

Or not. What do I know?

Well, I know a little. I'm in a similiar situation. Until recently, I have never been one to tear up during movies or television or whatever. Now, I tear up all the time. I cried during the trailer for that movie about dog in Antarctica "Eight Below" which looks like it will be nothing more than an overgrown disney channel movie... but I cried. Like a girl.

It's not so bad though. I figure as long as I don't start watching TV shows only because I want so and so to be with so and so, I'm still cool.

Well, it could just be that since finding a show you loved, you're more willing to become emotionally invested in television and movies. I guess that's an obivous answer, but it makes a lot of sense. LOL, it's like becoming an emotional TV junkie. You keep becoming invested in what you watch, hoping it will give you the same emotional high as Firefly...

Or not. What do I know?

Well, I know a little. I'm in a similiar situation. Until recently, I have never been one to tear up during movies or television or whatever. Now, I tear up all the time. I cried during the trailer for that movie about dog in Antarctica "Eight Below" which looks like it will be nothing more than an overgrown disney channel movie... but I cried. Like a girl.

It's not so bad though. I figure as long as I don't start watching TV shows only because I want so and so to be with so and so, I'm still cool.

I got all emotional that way once while on certain birth control medicine.
I'm sure you all wanted to know that. LOL

If you had said you were 50-something I'd tell you it was just the big "M" looming on the horizon, but since you're only 20-somethiing I don't know what it is (?!?). Although it is good to get those emotions out, and crying is a good catharsis, if it really bothers you, you could look to seeking therapy to work through it. I know alot of people are "funny" about seeing a "shrink" but I highly recommend it to easy the anxiety about such thing.

I cry when there are kitties on television!! I was watching the movie "The Thing", and it's John Carpenter, and it's a gross out movie but I was getting teared up when the dogs in the movie were getting killed. I was so sad! So, no you're not alone, even if I'm not a bottler, I've lived with one and sometimes when the flood gates open, it's a good thing!:)