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Despondent today.... it happens.
Friday, February 24, 2006


I don't often get into this blogging stuff. I'm not very good at it and I usually look back and think I'm whinging. And we all know that accomplishes nothing. But I thought perhaps if I poured myself out where I could see it, I could quit tearing up like a silly.

I have been this way several times now ABOUT Firefly. This isn't real life stuff, this is sadness connected to my feelings about a tv show, gorramit? I've never done this before about a non- real life thing, so it throws me for a loop everytime I do it.

I have been without regular sleep now since Monday, as I'm "tendin' to sick folks", both my husband and daughter had surgery this week, so I'm assuming I'm gettin' a little punchy from lack of sleep. So I'm sure this has a true bearing on my sadness this a.m.

I miss our crew, and every post on FFF.net, particularly the one of Joss' interview where he doesn't sound too positive about the return of the ship and crew just send me back to tears.

Gonna be one of those days I guess, where I'm gonna have to "pull myself straight" as my Dad used to say and face the day head on and hope I get better. I'm still so proud to be a Browncoat and I'm glad I can come here and join in with everyone.


Still holdin' - FollowMal

COMMENTS

Saturday, February 25, 2006 3:18 AM

FOLLOWMAL


You know, Bookaddict,I have found that this is a warm and caring place to air my feelings and everyone jumped in and cheered me up and was there for me so quickly that my day was saved.

I thank you all for being there for me and making me feel SO much better.

And yea, the caffeine helped too. :)

I expect today to be great!

Saturday, February 25, 2006 2:15 AM

BOOKADDICT


What better place to air your feelings than this?

Hope you're feeling better now after the caffeine.

*pats shoulder*

There's always tomorrow.

Friday, February 24, 2006 11:31 AM

FOLLOWMAL


Thanks, Safe. I am having a moment... stopped for a bit to check here and commiserate with friends... and am having a hot cup of tea... yay caffeine!

I'm so glad I have you guys!
It's good bein' a Browncoat!

Friday, February 24, 2006 11:25 AM

SAFEAT2ND


Chin up kiddo.

Have a momment. It helps.

Friday, February 24, 2006 11:24 AM

FOLLOWMAL


Thank you Asarian, for Tennyson paraphrased and for being a good friend.

I am better this afternoon, and I'll never stop holdin'. You can count on it!

Friday, February 24, 2006 11:11 AM

ASARIAN


Hey FollowMal,

This is your private space; just be gentle enough with yourself to allow yourself to do anything here; even whine, should you so feel inclined. :) Not that you're whining, but I think I'm often doing just that, in my own blog, and then I just think: "This is my party, I can cry if I want to." :) You're always there for others; be here just for you, okay?

Besides, what is this I hear about FireFly not being real-life? :) We all miss the FireFly Love, the warm sensations of family, and bonds that reach deep to appeal to our humanity. That, for me, is what makes it real; or, rather, what pulls FireFly into the realm of reality: it shows me something I find a great shortage of in real life. It's Love, in point of fact. And we want it back, gorramit! :)

You just hold! Hold until Mal gets back! And I will do likewise; and we will do the impossible; and that will make us mighty!

Feel free to "pull yourself straight", if that's what you need to do. On the other hand, I would fully understand (and probably encourage it a little) if you just allowed yourself to experience the sadness over that huge FireFly-shaped hole in your heart. And you did just that! In pouring yourself out, where you could see it, you give voice to your sense of loss. To paraphrase Tennyson, ever-so subtlely,

I leave thy praises unexpress'd
In 'verse that brings myself relief,
And by the measure of my grief
I leave thy greatness to be guess'd.

Also, my door, like my heart, is always open; know you can always pour your heart here, in case it runneth over.

Friday, February 24, 2006 7:03 AM

FOLLOWMAL


Thanks, CallMeSerenity...

*hugs* back.

And they will.

Friday, February 24, 2006 5:39 AM

CALLMESERENITY


Yeah, we all have days like that!

*hugs* and I hope things get better.


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