Star charts, an un-named woman, and a fourty five. by nvghostrider

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Star charts, an un-named woman, and a fourty five.
Thursday, December 28, 2006

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Star charts, an un-named woman, and a fourty five.
Current mood: nostalgic

I was meanin' to post a blog a few days ago but I'm busy, tired, hungry, etc, etc, etc...

So the years almost up and it seems there has been such a string of misses and failures and fuck ups that I want nothing more than to be drunk for the next two weeks in a warm place surrounded by white sand ans half naked women. But since that ain't gonna happen I'm pretty sure the weekend will be spent outdoors shaking from the cold licking my already chapped lips and thinking of warm places. On a good note, the outdoor stuff should be pretty fun. And Sunday night I'm takin' PsychoBilly and whoever wants to go with to the New Years Eve fireworks show in town.

Anyone care whats goin' on in my head. Right now I'm really miffed at the fact She Who Shall Not Be Named keeps calling for a coworker. I knows she's got their damn cell number so why the F does she keep calling here? I mean, shit woman. You already threw shit at me, quit callin' here rubbin' it in my face. I just don't get some people. Are they so oblivious to the feelings of others or so gorram selfish that they feel they owe no explaination for their ignorance or lack of consideration? Who gets this? It makes no sense for such a great person to treat others as fodder for the angst caused by other people. As much as I would love for my anger to get the best of me... Aw screw it. I wanna vent at She Who Shall Not Be Named. I've done nothing to wrong her, but plenty to have wronged myself.

Put yourself in harms way in the name of money. Sure. Its an incredible risk. You can lose your life or be incapacitated and have no further chance of working.

Now but yourself in harms way in the name of love. Take off your armor and lay down your weapons. Give and take as a man. Be free of the binds holding you to your ideals and obligations. Forget, if only for a moment, your capacity to do good or evil. Just love and be loved. Just be.

I wanted to give this a try. But it seems every time I try things end up worse than when they started. I grow further and further from the stars. As a child, I felt that if I reached just a little higher, I could feel the stars twinkling on my fingertips. Now, I have to look hard or grab some glass just to see them.

Wow. If that all don't sound like an ass ripping bummer than I don't know what does.

As for the good stuff: the kids are healthy, I love my family (despite the fact they drive me nuts sometimes), I still kinda like my job, I'm not in terrible debt, and I have a new 1911. The last one sounds a bit trivial, but Gorrammit, I worked hard all F'ing year and deserve it.

I guess this is supposed to be the cap for 2006 for me. Pretty sure I won't have the chance to post here for a few days so here's to 2007. I hope it gets better for everyone.

COMMENTS

Monday, January 1, 2007 3:18 PM

STINKINGROSE

Ethereal squeeze.

Don't get fresh young man.

Sunday, December 31, 2006 8:23 AM

BLUEEYEDBRIGADIER

Honestly...something I think that the only women with anything resembling selflessness and common sense hang around these parts, nvghostrider. But that's when I am in a funk;)

Still...you alive, you got family and you just added to your arsenal. It's all good:D

BEB

Friday, December 29, 2006 11:21 AM

MSG

Baby love...all I can say is HUGS and bappin hand on stand by...anytime!

Friday, December 29, 2006 4:37 AM

MAVOURNEEN

Ack, didn't work. You get the idea.

(A second Mental Hug)

Friday, December 29, 2006 4:36 AM

MAVOURNEEN

* I hope you can do the quotey thing in blogs. Here goes.

Quote:
Now Put yourself in harms way in the name of love. Take off your armor and lay down your weapons. Give and take as a man. Be free of the binds holding you to your ideals and obligations. Forget, if only for a moment, your capacity to do good or evil. Just love and be loved. Just be.

I wanted to give this a try. But it seems every time I try things end up worse than when they started. I grow further and further from the stars. As a child, I felt that if I reached just a little higher, I could feel the stars twinkling on my fingertips. Now, I have to look hard or grab some glass just to see them.

NV, don't ever let go of this. Ever.
It is what makes you a special man, and is what ultimately will lead you to love.
We're all pulling for you.
(Mental hug)

Thursday, December 28, 2006 1:57 PM

LITTLEALBATROSS29

Yes, NV - some people ae that ignorant.But you aren't and that makes you wionderful ! I hope this coming year brings you your heart's fondest wish..

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