It's certainly understandable to be upset about losing your friend. Don't think that there's anything wrong with you for feeling this way; everyone grieves differently so there's no right or wrong way to feel. Just because there are some good parts to your day doesn't mean that you shouldn't allow yourself to feel sad. I rarely have a day that's all happy or all sad.

I wish I could be a BDH and rescue you but I can't. Keep trying and keep flying; things won't always go your way, but they won't always go against you, either. Meanwhile, you have a lot of folks here who are rooting for you and wishing you the best.

Oh, and there should be a closing parentheses after "chances are you don't want to work for that person." LOL!

Here are my words of wisdom:

Life is tough. Life is not going to be happy-go-lucky every day. There will be bad days and there will be good days. Prepare for the bad days and cherish the good ones when you have them. It's *how* you deal with the bad days that will define your character. There is nothing else that is closer to the truth than that!

I'm so sorry that Liz passed away. I know it's tough. A year ago a friend of mine was killed, so I know it's INCREDIBLY rough right now. She would want you to keep practicing your craft, and it makes her beam with joy whenever you step in front of the limelights. Remember to take risks when your on stage (and in front of the camera, if you do that too). Know your lines, 'cause that's "donkey work" as my acting professor would say. Just remember that there is always a select number of parts open, so you won't get everything you try for. Even if you are the best actress in the world, you simply may not be the right kind of person the casting director is looking for, so don't take that kind of "no" to mean that you are bad. (And if the director does say "no, because you're a bad actress", and you know that you're decent, then chances are you don't want to work for that person. And don't be a diva on stage, 'cause some directors will replace you even if it is the night before the opening performance.

Break a leg, I hope you'll be able to make it through this.