BLUE SUN ROOM FAN FICTION - ROMANCE

WHOSTHATGIRL

Aching to Be - PG-15
Tuesday, April 1, 2008

She's aching to be.
Belongs to somebody not me. Blah blah blah, Yackety schmackety.
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CATEGORY: FICTION    TIMES READ: 2122    RATING: 9    SERIES: FIREFLY

She'd spent her life training to play whatever roles her clients wanted.

Mother. Confessor. Savior. Companion.

She'd stopped being herself when the heavy wooden doors of House Madrassa had shut behind her.

The one role he cast her in was the one she'd always refused. Even for clients.

Whore.

Nandi had been a whore. He'd seen fit to take to bed with Nandi.

Inara stared at the mussed sheets. She could still smell sex on the sheets. Knew precisely how Mal and Nandi had each other.

Not in a missionary position. Too conformative and predictable for Mal.

Not up against a wall. Mal was a deliberate man who liked to be careful about things. And half-dressed against a wall was too rushed for him.

Not from behind. Too much like rutting animals for his tastes.

Not with Nandi riding him. He'd never surrender that much control. At least, not the first time.

None of those. He'd been sitting up, back braced to the headboard, with her straddling him. Looking each other dead in the eye the entire time.

Like equals. Like the one thing Inara and Mal weren't.

And what had Inara done while Mal and Nandi were busy being equals? Sat on a hard floor and ached for the knowledge that Nandi knew how to just be far better than she did.

COMMENTS

Wednesday, April 2, 2008 2:44 AM

JANE0904


I can see Inara doing this, if nothing more than she has a slight touch of the martyr complex. After all, she leaves Mal at the end of Heart of Gold because she wants to stay so much.

Thursday, April 3, 2008 2:16 AM

KATESFRIEND


Wow. Tremendous insight into Inara in this fic.

Thursday, April 3, 2008 6:20 AM

NEWOLDBROWNCOAT


I like this. Glad I went back and caught it. I've always had a little trouble with
her motivation in the the Inara crying scene in Heart of Gold. This makes sense.


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