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Surviving
Tuesday, September 22, 2015

And I wouldn't trade that love for nothin'.

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Title: Surviving
Written for Round 4 Challenge 1 of "big_damn_quests" on LJ as Zoe
Word Count: 202

Challenge 1
How did you survive the toughest battle of your life?

It was Wash.

And it wasn't a gun fight, or any battle in the war, though some of those were damn tough.

Toughest battle I ever survived was learning to put it behind me, and to love again. Healin'. That's what he gave me, a chance to heal, to learn that there was still life worth livin', and that it could be damn fine too, despite all the horror that had come before - maybe even because of it.

Wash let me climb back out of the darkness into the light, let me see that love still existed and that I could still feel it, that I could still have it. Let me find me again.

Wasn't easy. Some are still caught in that place, still lost from themselves, living in the dark, doing penance. Wash gave me a chance at forgiveness, for myself and for the rest of the 'verse too.

Gave me the best damn years of my life.

Second toughest battle was leaving him in that chair. But he'd taught me what I needed to survive, and I have. And now, cause of him, there's someone new to love and learn with.

And I wouldn't trade that love for nothin'.

COMMENTS

Tuesday, September 29, 2015 5:00 PM

BYTEMITE

Yay, more 2x2 posts! And with me very late! I'm just glad there's still storywritting happening, I feel like the fanfic continue the spirit of the show the best.

Zoe is as ever awesome, and I like the idea of her having healed with Wash, enough that she can do right by their kid even if he's gone now. Zoe is no stranger to loss, but she's one who knows how to keep going forward.

Tuesday, September 29, 2015 6:11 PM

2X2

Yeah, my muse has been a happy little muse of late and I've been plinking away at stuff. Working on a new Slower Path installment even :) As long as the words keep coming, I'll keep posting :)

Zoe's a bit tougher for me to get back into, we never talked as much as Inara and I do ;)

Sunday, November 22, 2015 12:03 AM

2X2

Wow, thank you! That is an incredible compliment to me, because I don't always find Zoe so easy to do, so thank you for that!

Sunday, November 22, 2015 12:03 AM

2X2

Wow, thank you! That is an incredible compliment to me, because I don't always find Zoe so easy to do, so thank you for that!

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