Kaylee was in a rush to get Serenity back into the sky. Ever since the captain had come back with the others from the Alliance hospital he had Kaylee running around so they could be back up as soon as possible. Zoë and Mal knew a little about how to fix a ship but not a lot. Jayne, River, Inara, and Simon didn’t know anything about fixing the ship. This is usually Kaylee’s area and when it’s this bad Wash would help with his ability with fixing the pilot controls. The thought of Wash caused Kaylee to stop in her tracks. She lost they lost one of their friend. Kaylee’s eyes released what was left of the happiness that they held. She couldn’t help but wonder why. Why would ant higher power allow somebody like Wash to die? Wash wasn’t a fighter. They all knew that. He was just a pilot that made people laugh with his sense of humor. To Kaylee, he was just a kid at heart. I mean the man did play with plastic dinosaurs. But he was full of heart.

“Poor Zoë” Kaylee said sadly.

But before she started to work on the engine again. She let her thoughts wander on their fallen friends and heroes. This last fight brought out so much emotion from everybody. Even her. Then she stopped again when she remembered Simon’s emotional revelation.

~Flashback~

“My biggest mistake was not being with you. I mean…”he said staring right into her eyes.

“You mean…sex?”

Simon give her a lop sided smirk. “I mean to say.”

“The hell with this I’m going to live.”

~End Flashback~

Thinking back to those moments she wondered if what Simon said was true in the meaning and not just said because he thought that they were going to die.

“His meaning was honest.” came a soft voice.

Kaylee was started out of her thoughts by a new voice that she jerked her head up so fast that she sliced her head on part of the engine.

“Gorram” Kaylee whispered as she placed her free hand on the cut and used her legs to pull herself from under the engine.

“I’m sorry” River said as she walked over to Kaylee.

“It’s k’. I just wasn’t prepared for somebody to talk. I was use to the silence.”

Kaylee strode and walked over to the shelving that was behind her hammock.

“You should go see the boob of a brother of mine.” She said. “I’m okay. I don’t have time to waist right now.” She said pulling out some first aid bandages from her stash. She always kept some in the engine room in case of situations like this when she could go to the infirmary.

“But Simon can fix you.” River said. “Simon can make the pain and confusion go away.” Kaylee knew that River wouldn’t give up until she agrees to see Simon.

“k’ River I’ll go see Simon in a little while.” River watched as Kaylee places a white bandage on her head then picked back up her tool and started back on the engine.

“River I’m sure that if you see Inara she would love to play cards with you.” River nodded then started for the door.

“Soon” was all River whispered towards Kaylee before she left leaving Kaylee to her sad and confused thoughts about the future between her and Simon.

TBC

Translations Gorram- damit