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Monday, October 15, 2012 1:12 PM
NIKI2
Gettin' old, but still a hippie at heart...
Quote:because everyone here is clinically insane
Quote:And I'm telling you that you've got big ole blinders on, that everything you observe is going through the filter of your self-hatred so that it all comes out: "Bytemite is BAD and does bad things and everyone hates her!" Your filter lies to you. You never hurt me. You have at times interpreted things I said as attacks on you, and maybe you lashed out in return, but this DIDN'T HURT ME. I am resorting to all caps because you don't seem to be getting this. My reaction when you do this kind of thing is not hurt, it's more of a mild annoyance that you're making up a fight where there isn't one, and concern that you're spiraling into a bad place. But it never hurts me. I've seen you go through this enough that I know you'll come out of it. You just come out of it with even more self-hatred. That's what it means that the only person you need to defend yourself against is yourself. When you take things personally that don't need to be taken that way, you don't hurt other people. You hurt yourself. As long as you keep looking at yourself as some kind of monstrous villain who hurts people - which is ridiculous - you will continue this pattern of seeing everything as an attack. You will continue to lash out, then blame yourself. The only way out to give yourself a fucking break. You are NOT a monster, and for Heaven's sake no one here hates you. Let go of your self-hatred long enough to consider that. I can't speak for everyone, but I feel pretty strongly that you've hurt no one to near the degree you think you have. No one but yourself. And no one but YOU can forgive you for that.
Quote:And yet you're all still like, oh we trust you, we care about you. All of this trust and concern is dangerous for you. What exactly do I have to do to convince you?
Monday, October 15, 2012 1:48 PM
MAL4PREZ
Quote:Originally posted by Niki2: Give it a rest, Byte...you are no better and no worse than anyone else here,
Monday, October 15, 2012 2:16 PM
BYTEMITE
Monday, October 15, 2012 2:34 PM
OONJERAH
Monday, October 15, 2012 2:37 PM
Monday, October 15, 2012 2:56 PM
Quote:Originally posted by Bytemite: I have known, since I was five, that I am flawed, and that those flaws are unforgiveable. Don't be so sure that I'm not cruel, I have a nasty history of it.
Monday, October 15, 2012 3:03 PM
Monday, October 15, 2012 3:12 PM
1KIKI
Goodbye, kind world (George Monbiot) - In common with all those generations which have contemplated catastrophe, we appear to be incapable of understanding what confronts us.
Monday, October 15, 2012 3:16 PM
Quote:Originally posted by Bytemite: So I was faking the dark voice in my head when I was five, that delightful lullaby that told me that I should kill myself because I was worthless as I went to sleep. That when I was crying behind the bleachers and kids threw jello at me, it said that I was pathetic and deserved it. Good to know Niki. Thank you for setting me straight.
Monday, October 15, 2012 3:17 PM
Monday, October 15, 2012 3:18 PM
Monday, October 15, 2012 3:31 PM
Quote:Originally posted by Bytemite: Mal4Prez: Yes. Because clearly some five year olds are irredeemable. Especially ones that continue to do horrible shit well into their teen years that lands them in psychiatric treatment. Ones with horrified parents, who ask why they did something unspeakable, and receive only a laugh.
Monday, October 15, 2012 3:37 PM
Monday, October 15, 2012 3:50 PM
Monday, October 15, 2012 3:52 PM
Monday, October 15, 2012 4:00 PM
Monday, October 15, 2012 4:05 PM
Monday, October 15, 2012 4:11 PM
Quote:Did it into High School? Did you also do it this month, this year?
Monday, October 15, 2012 4:40 PM
Monday, October 15, 2012 4:45 PM
FREMDFIRMA
Monday, October 15, 2012 4:50 PM
Monday, October 15, 2012 5:29 PM
RIONAEIRE
Beir bua agus beannacht
Tuesday, October 16, 2012 5:50 AM
Quote: Yes. Because clearly some five year olds are irredeemable. Especially ones that continue to do horrible shit well into their teen years that lands them in psychiatric treatment. Ones with horrified parents, who ask why they did something unspeakable, and receive only a laugh.
Quote: I suppose I deserve that disgust.
Tuesday, October 16, 2012 7:31 AM
KWICKO
"We'll know our disinformation program is complete when everything the American public believes is false." -- William Casey, Reagan's presidential campaign manager & CIA Director (from first staff meeting in 1981)
Quote:Originally posted by BYTEMITE: Quote:Did it into High School? Did you also do it this month, this year? That was hard enough to admit. And I suppose I deserve that disgust. The answer is no. But I still hurt people. I don't know what else you want from me. It's a history of violence, abuse, and manipulative behaviour. It's ongoing. And that is why I can't stand myself. And that dislike is justified, and what I did and what I am, I brought it on to myself. So don't tell me I can make it all better, because I can't, and because none of you would believe that.
Tuesday, October 16, 2012 7:38 AM
Tuesday, October 16, 2012 7:49 AM
Tuesday, October 16, 2012 12:56 PM
Tuesday, October 16, 2012 12:59 PM
WULFENSTAR
http://youtu.be/VUnGTXRxGHg
Tuesday, October 16, 2012 3:15 PM
Tuesday, October 16, 2012 4:02 PM
Quote:Originally posted by Oonjerah: The proverb of the Two Wolves is one of my favorites, too. What a great perspective! How many times a day do I go off on some negative rant? And then finally wake up to myself, "Oops! I'm feedin' the Wrong Wolf." Elegant simplicity.
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