Story: Why Not Me Chapter: 2 Summary: Waking up the next morning. This one is in Kaylee's POV warning, femme slash pairing Authors Note: My first Firefly fiction. I'm having trouble personifying River and Kaylee both. With River, it's this graceful confusion I'm having trouble capturing, and with Kaylee, it's the language, the accent, the jargon. Help Help Help, feedback deeply needed. Hasn't been Beta'd. Don't know someone who could. Anyone volunteering? Disclaimer. Joss is Boss. Don't own characters, But I'd sure love to own all the women of the ship.

Kaylee awoke first, bright-eyed and well rested. She smiled, thinking.

'After sleepin on the deck of the bay? Tweren't no blanket, no pilla'. Just River on my side.

The experience was mildly eerie, but Kaylie was thankful. She propped herself up on her elbows and breathed in deep. It was still quite early in the morning. You could usually hear the conversation from the galley during breakfast wafting throughout the whole ship. Back when everyone was still here, at least.

Kaylee looked to her left at River, sleeping peacefully. 'Wonder what't wus made her ask me all them weird questions last night. Never saw 'er lookin' at nobody funny, That kinda funny . Me 'specially.

Gazing at River while she slept, Kaylee noticed that she was more beautiful when she slept, no confusion, no strange questions, just, angel-like.

Kaylee jumped up quick when River smiled and opened her eyes. River hopped up twice as fast and placed her hand on Kaylee's left cheek, pulling her in for a hungry kiss that remind Kaylee of everything she'd never seen in River. A virginal lust, a hunger, a need.

Mind running wild, Kaylee couldn't break free, she wasn't sure she wanted to.

Jayne came down the stairs, lazy-eyed, heading for his bench. Kaylee didn't notice him and he didn't notice Kaylee till he looked their way by coincidence. He woke up mighty quick. "I'll be in my bunk."

Kaylee broke free from Rivers grasp. "River...!" She looked her in the eye. Suddenly, all the curiousity, confusion, and eeriness left River's eyes, all that was left was...Kaylee didn't know what she was seeing.

River looked at her, pleading with her eyes. "You didn't choose to not kiss me back." "Ya done caught me off guard." Unable to move, Kaylee stood still.

"For 49.6 seconds, I caught you off guard?" River looked almost angry.

Kaylee nodded. "River, I don't know what else ta tell ya." Kaylee resisted bringing her fingers to her lips. But River felt it all.

"I don't understand. Simon wants you still, you know, if that's what you want..." She was hurt.

"If I knew what I wanted, maybe thingsed be different. But they ain't, and I don't." she shrugged, trying to make it clear to River that she wasn't the only one confused about life.

Kaylee watched as River sat down, Motioning for her to do the same. "I dreamed of you last night."

Kaylee sat, remembering she'd done the same. She listened as River spoke.

"We were butterflies. Different combinations of colors. You were deep reds, browns, yellows. I was light blues and greens, and combinations of the two, with red running through me in places. We both flew around the same flower, bright yellow. You were beautiful."

Kaylee gasped halfway through River's explanation, but waited for her to halt to start speaking. "I had the same dream. "t'was nice. Pretty n' such. Was beautiful." A sudden explanation donned on her. "River, tell me ya didn't...didn't put sumthin' 'n ma head?"

"I wanted you to know. How I think of you. How you make me feel." River lay on her back, Kaylee stayed sitting.

"You make me happy. Serene. Nearly content. You make me feel good."

Kaylee pulled River back up to face her. "Don't none of what you jus' said soun' like ya. This ain't you."

River lay down, pullin her down beside her. "This is me with you. Simon thinks I need drugs and talking and other unpleasant experiences. I need none of it. I can't do it alone, but I can do it with you. I can do this." She stared up at the ceiling of the bay again. Kaylee could swear she was seeing something that wasn't there, with that calm smile on her face.

River grabbed her hand and pointed up. "Do you see it now?"

Kaylee looked up, and it seemed as if she could see all of rivers current feelings about her. For a second, she could see a glimmer of she and River kissing, then she thought she saw the two of them in Kaylee's bunk, making love. then the butterflies again.

"You're my hu die (butterfly). My beautiful hu die."

River stood up, and Kaylee was pulled along with her. A million tiny things rushed through Kaylee’s brain.

“Calm, hu die. No need for confusion.” Kaylee breathed slowly, calming down.

She shook her head. “No need for confusun’, huh, don’t know bout that really. I reckon I’m feelin a mite confused right now.” She walked towards the stairs.

“Would consumption help, hu die?”

Kaylee stopped and looked back. ‘Con-what?”

“Breakfast.”

Kaylee nodded and River followed, Dancing and hopping as she went.