BLUE SUN ROOM FAN FICTION - DRAMA

2X2

The Darkness of Drowning
Wednesday, August 23, 2006

A slightly inebriated Mal corners Inara in the corridor.


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Rating: NC17 for Sex Spoilers: None Word Count: 1045 Pairing/Characters: Mal/Inara A/N: Written for the insatiable terimaru ;o>. This was an off the cuff, on the fly little drabble thing in chat that I tidied up a bit. This was an instance of one of those scenes that just won't get out of your head. I don't know the circumstances, I don't know if this is first time sex, though I think it is, not that this is the way I'd want it to be for them, or maybe it's a dream. I don't know. But the scene would not go away. So I'm sharing it. As always, comments and concrit are greatly appreciated.

Title: The Darkness of Drowning By: 2x2

The last thing Inara expects as she makes her way to the galley is a slightly drunken Mal suddenly cornering her in the corridor, pushing her up to the wall, eyes smoky and dark.

She stares at him uncertainly; maybe even slightly afraid as he braces himself against the wall, hands on either side of her, nostrils flaring. And there’s no doubt - oh no, she has no doubt - what he’s here for; finds the thought far more arousing than it should be, or that she wants to admit.

She starts to speak, his name half formed but one sharp look from those stormy eyes silences her and she swallows the words. His lips part, not quite a snarl, but close, teeth making a biting motion towards her. And she's caught; not physically held - not yet - but she couldn't move away if her life depended on it.

Very, very slowly, full of dark, sexual aggression, he leans in, smells her skin, her hair, drawing in her scent, almost growling before his teeth suddenly sink into her neck and she startles with a gasp, sucking in a sharp breath, her hands coming up – to push him away? She doesn't know, but he grabs them, shoves them back against the wall forcefully, holding them there as he steps in, bringing his body that much closer to hers, mouth and teeth attacking the skin beneath them.

She's trembling... oh, so trembling, wondering what's happened, what's put him into this mood; what he's doing and why the hell she's letting him, and - oooh - his teeth are doing things to her and she shouldn't be letting him, but gods... his breath is hot and moist against her neck and he's earthy, real. Here.

He lets go of one wrist abruptly and drops his hand to her thigh - her bare thigh - because - tianna - she's only wearing her night gown... Didn't expect anyone to be here, let alone him!

His lips move across her throat, suckling and nipping as he slides under her jaw, and his hand starts up her leg, bold and with clear intent, making her shudder. His smell, so different, so much darker than anything she's used to, it's all around her, and it is dark, and he's dark, a wildness in him she's only caught glimpses of before. And she knows how dangerous he can be, so dangerous like this… and Buddha help her because she wants it, her nipples tightening and moisture, hot and slick, pooling between her legs in anticipation.

Her eyes flutter as his teeth scrape across her skin, and this is Mal she reminds herself, her lower belly clenching with the sudden, forbidden desire the realization evokes. She tries to speak, say anything, but her breaths are so rough, so ragged and his hand is sliding between her legs, her hands fisting as his fingers find their way inside her, a guttural whimper tearing from her, and gods, they're in the hallway, they're still in the hallway and he's got his fingers inside her…

Then he's stepping closer, pressing her back, thumb gliding up to slant over her clitoris roughly and her free hand reaches out, clutching his shirt, whole body trembling as he begins to work his fingers in and out of her, his hips thrusting in time, and she cant stop shaking, can't stop, it's all so intense.

Her mouth’s dry from panting and more sounds are drawn from her as his teeth move up to her ear, then drag across the sharp angle of her jaw. Her lips seek his, lost to this, not caring why or where, just wanting... But he's elusive, nipping at her in ways that steal her every sharp inhalation of breath.

She whimpers as his fingers leave her without warning and he presses his forehead to the spot just below her ear, drawing in a deep lungful of air as his hand begins to work his belt loose.

She swallows hard, bringing her arms up around his neck as he releases her other wrist – he needs both hands to open his pants - and tianna, she's breathing so fast because it's happening, gods, he's going to take he right here! And then he's looking at her again, eyes as black as the space he calls home, jaw clenched shut, and she thinks that they should go somewhere, back to her shuttle, that this shouldn't happen here…

But his hands grasp her hips and pull her against him, lifting as he steps into her, bracing her against the wall, one hand guiding her thigh around him as he drives himself into her, hard - so much harder and faster than she expects - and her rough cry echoes around the dull metal walls.

And it hurts, but gods, it's so good too... and she clings to him, eyes squeezing shut as he thrusts up into her furiously, teeth clenching with every jarring impact of his pelvis against hers. Her head falls forward over his shoulder, body molding to his as she digs her nails into his back, and he growls low in his throat, the sound growing louder and longer as his tempo quickens, until it's a roar and he's frantic and she's shouting with the sudden violent climax that rips through her.

Her cries are almost sobs as he bucks against her impossibly hard, again, again, again, and then he's coming too; he's inside her and he's coming, his teeth sinking into her neck, biting hard enough that she has to pull at his hair in protest, his fiery heat spreading within her, pleasure and pain blending until he sags against her, chest heaving, face pressed against her neck, shaking.

And that’s when she feels them, his tears, hot on her skin.

He lowers her gently, letting her feet touch the floor and pulls away, only then meeting her stare with his tortured eyes, full of everything, all the rage, frustration, sadness, pain and guilt, the knowledge of what he's done... his mouth moving in a silent apology as he staggers backwards, supporting himself on the walls as he forces himself away from her and then turns, fleeing in anguished shame....

Leaving her shaky and weak.

Alone.

COMMENTS

Wednesday, August 23, 2006 5:07 PM

PRICEMERC


Wuh de ma, that was amazing. I can't put it into words. The darkness of it all, raised it millions of miles above a regular smut chapter. You imagination is beyond amazing. Also, tip from a slightly dark person, feed your dark side, i like what you come up with when you do.

Wednesday, August 23, 2006 5:12 PM

GOLDY


I know I already gushed all over it (you?) over on LJ, but I thought I'd add another OMGHOLYSHITONASTICK over here.

I know I've already threatened you for a sequel, but you should be aware, my powers of Nagging and Begging are great and strong!

Wednesday, August 23, 2006 5:43 PM

ANJULIE


What? For me??? Oooh! Pretty! Hot! Dark!

*Copies and stores in a shiny gold box with and ties it all up with a purple-y satin ribbon*

Why thank you, darlin.

Um...is there more? Just askin'. :-P

Wednesday, August 23, 2006 5:46 PM

ANJULIE


What? For me??? Oooh! Pretty! Hot! Dark!

*Copies and stores in a shiny gold box and ties it all up with a purple-y satin ribbon*

Why thank you, darlin.

Um...is there more? Just askin'. :-P

Wednesday, August 23, 2006 6:00 PM

KAYNARA


"He lowers her gently, letting her feet touch the floor and pulls away, only then meeting her stare with his tortured eyes, full of everything, all the rage, frustration, sadness, pain and guilt, the knowledge of what he's done..."

i'm not usually a 'guh' person, but you've earned it, sweetie. this was just so dark and beautiful, especially the last part. you can just 'see' that tortured expression in mal's eyes. and so very hot! i have a perverse obsession with dark, angsty mal, esp when he's in the 'want, take, have' mode. he's like everything you shouldn't want in a man and yet do lol. anyway, very nice. is there to be more???

Wednesday, August 23, 2006 9:11 PM

PRICEMERC


i sure as hell hope so

Thursday, August 24, 2006 12:59 AM

AMDOBELL


This was really well written and I kept expecting the ending to be Inara waking alone in her bed realising it was just a dream. While I love Mal and Inara and want to see them together I cannot ever imagine the Captain raping her. Ali D
You can't take the sky from me

Thursday, August 24, 2006 2:51 AM

ANJULIE


That was not a rape scene by any stretch of the imagination.

Thursday, August 24, 2006 3:12 AM

2X2


PriceMerc: Thank-you! I'm pleased you enjoyed the dark nature of this so much. I'm a rather 'dark' person too, and enjoy dark, angsty fic, so don't worry, I'm feeding my dark side plenty *G*

Goldy: You gushed all over me? What the heck was I doin' at the time that I missed it?? *shifty eyed* You could *cough cough* do it again? *wicked grin* And you should be happy to note that I am wracking my brains, trying to suss out what happened before, and what might come after… tyrant ;o> Thanks, darlin'!

Anjulie: Now, don’t go playin' all innocent, you! Is there more… you know I went to bed early(ish) last night, woman! Stop encouraging them!! ;o> I'm glad you liked it, that it was 'still good' after I cleaned it up - grammatically speaking ;o> *hugs*

Kaynara: ooooh, a 'guh'!! heeee! Thank-you! I'm glad that scene was so visual for you. Dark, angsty Mal is WELL worth obsessing over, and *is* definitely hot *G* I'm pleased you enjoyed it, and I'm thinking on a sequel… trying to figure out what might happen next, and what came before… we'll see ;o)

Amdobell: Well, thanks for saying it was well written, but I have to point out that Mal did not rape Inara here. I tried to make that apparent in several lines, particularly that *she* was *letting* him do this – considering she *is* a trained Companion and would fight him if he was trying to take what she wasn't willing to give – how arousing it is, the forbidden desire she feels because it's Mal, that she tries to kiss him, her sounds of pleasure, her anticipation, how good it is, her orgasm…. It may have been dark, and rough, and initiated by Mal, but he didn't rape her or take anything she didn't willingly let him take. Just want to be clear on that.

Thursday, August 24, 2006 4:29 AM

TAMSIBLING


I really liked this as well, and while it was dark, it wasn't rape. Inara could have fought back and her thoughts were very clear that while she didn't quite understand what had come over Mal, she wanted him.

I think Mal's guilt at the end is well-placed - he probably did not picture ever having sex with Inara pressed against a wall (well, not at least for their first time). And he knows that he didn't ask permission and wasn't particurlarly gentle as he was definitely in a more primal mode. But again, that was pretty damn hot!

Yes, there must be a sequel. I'd like to see Inara follow him back to his bunk - he can't just sex her like that and then slink away - man needs to admit his actions and take the consequence if Inara decides maybe she's gonna take somethin'!

Sequel - I demand a sequel!

Thursday, August 24, 2006 7:01 AM

MORDSITH


This was wonderful! I just wanted to say again (I'm meimei42 on lj) Anyway this rocked, the emotion is so perfect. You did a wonderful job!

Sunday, August 27, 2006 5:36 PM

EMPIREX


Hoo boy! 2X2, that was just so deliciously angsty! Please write a sequel! You must write a sequel! With more angst and, of course, Tortured!Mal. Perhaps if we ply you with virtual chocolate and vodka? Please don't make us wait too long!

Sunday, August 27, 2006 7:07 PM

BLUEEYEDBRIGADIER


Oh...you've been joining in a Vulcan mindmeld with Our Fearful Leader (Joss, for the uninitiated ;D), haven't you 2x2? Cuz this was just dark and raw and....totally freaking brilliant!

I have to admit...I "GUH!"-ed and squeed after reading this. This...this is what two individuals like Mal and Inara are about when it comes to finding a connection: damn the rules, damn propriety and the intricate tango of sexual frustration they are masters at...just open and raw desire and lust and yearning:D

Like the rest of this motley band of n'er-do-wells, I am on bended knee to ask for a sequel. Mal's made the oh-so-hot opening gambit. It's time for the good Ambassador to take the lead for this new dance...and really get it going;D

BEB

Sunday, October 1, 2006 9:01 AM

TPAGE


Good job.


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